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Monday, November 28, 2011

Just a quick drop in.

Just a quick drop in...feeling a bit under the weather for the past couple day....
but can't let this stop me from counting...
So thankful this did not hit until Saturday night.....
Having everyone(minus one son) home...under one roof for days together....
My parents at 87 still hosting thanksgiving....
Yummy food...everyone feeling a little pregnant....

So thankful for Ellie's continued growth...and this never gets old....

Celebrating my daughter's birthday...wow my baby is carry her baby!!!
The bond of sonship and brotherhood....


So thankful for such a sweet Thanksgiving weekend...
Doing an Advent devotional with my Dad....the healing power of God...
Tylenol....
Join me as I link up with Ann and Jen

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Liebster Blog

                                                          
I feel very blessed and honored when I found a message slipped into my comment box from T @http://aseedinspired.com/...she was the first comment I received when I very tenatively stepped out into the blog world...and I have followed her since...she writes with depth and challenges the status quo. 
So I am passing on the blessing...
Here are the rules for the Leibster Award:
1. Show your thanks to the blogger that nominated you.
2. Reveal your top picks and let them know.
3. Post the award on your blog.
4.Bask in the love and support in blogsphere.
5. And best of all…have fun and share it too. 



This award is given to bloggers who have fewer than 200 followers all in the spirit of fostering new connections. Liebster is German and means ‘dearest’ or ‘beloved’ but it can mean favorite.
Since I can only choose 5  I wish to acknowledge the five following blogs for their diverse styles of blogging. They are unique with what they share and contribute to the world of blogging.
In no particular order:
Kris @ http://ponderingsbykris.blogspot.com/...Kris's heart is beautiful and she shares her compassionate heart for the homeless through words and pictures...always stirs my heart.
Nacole@http://sixinthehickorysticks.blogspot.com/...Nacole is a gifted writer that shares from a honest and raw heart as she journeys deeper into the Love of God.
Christina@http://toshowthemjesus.com/...Christina shares very practical truths that she applies to her everyday life.
Shelly@http://redemptionsbeauty.wordpress.com/...Shelly's writings brings hope of God's redemptive powers to every reader.
Martha@ http://grittygrace.com/... I laughed when I read a comment left by Martha...see... we are some of the "older" ladies out here...so she said we should team up with a blog called"tough old broads"...she has wisdom and perspective that age does bring and she shares these in an honest, humble way.
I encourage you to stop by and read the richness each of these ladies have to offer.

Friday, November 25, 2011

The word is overflowing.



I am full...overflowing....not with food...well maybe that too...but full and overflowing with deep...deep gratitude....grateful to have my house full with my adult children back home....my new daughter in law who came to stay with us because her husband had to be gone over their first Thanksgiving...grateful to see Ellie in the belly continuing to grow...seeing my daughter continue to look radiant...and the look on my son-in-laws face as he walked in to see part of "Birthing in America"...green and shock filled his face....grateful for my 87 yr. parents who still host Thanksgiving at their house...grateful for grace for relationships that still need healing...so grateful to Ann for starting me on a transformative journey...so grateful to know God's love and Grace in deeper ways...words can't describe the gratitude that fills my soul...words will never be enough to thank God for all He has done...all He does and all He will do...

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Measuring themselves by themselves.


Measuring Themselves by Themselves

“…but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise. 
2Cor. 10:12

This is my first holiday season in the blog world…and I must be honest…I am not sure I could have entered the blog world as a young mom… a mom who was so much in progress…a mom who felt like a failure at the end of most days…a mom who felt everyone did it better than me…
I was the chief of sinners…
but I thought of this in the most self-condemning way.

So when I read Ann’s prompt …preparing for holy holidays…my first thought was… I am glad I am in a different season of life.  While many will click and glean from all the wisdom…encouragement… and the different prospectives…there will be those who will be reading and letting the enemy heap guilt upon them...allowing the enemy to whisper…”failure”…”if only”…

My heart is for you…before you read other’s blogs…pray…ask God to prepare you…to teach you…but also to protect you from the enemy taking wonderful truths…traditions…convictions of others and using those to heap his guilt upon you…how the enemy loves to breed competition among woman…feed us the lie we are not enough…

There is so much beauty to be found here…but if you don’t have grace to read…just back away…it’s ok…sometimes one just needs to tuck away under God’s protective covering…and trust God will design for you and your family the season and celebration He has for you…let Him be you friend…your guide…your creator for this season.


Please join me as I link up with Ann and Shanda

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Free Indeed.


Free Indeed
My emotions had been locked up since childhood…in my innocence I closed off part of  my feelings…willing myself to live “under control”…no anger…not realizing when you shut off one emotion...
you close down all emotions. 

As a result…I learned how to measure out my emotions…
how to self protect… 
my emotions could be measured on a flat line…
no extreme sorrow…no extreme joy…

Measuring my emotions robbed me of so much…I did not allow God to enter into the depth of my pain…so I could not experience the depth His healing… …in my self sufficiency I did not allow people into my suffering…robbing me from the healing God brings through His body…

But maybe what was robbed the most was joy….deep gratitude…overwhelming, exuberant thankfulness… I measured this out too…I self protected here as well…my thinking was twisted…If I hold back…not be too thankful…then when the seasons changed…I won’t be too disappointed…I even felt like I was doing God a favor …If I wasn’t too sad or wasn’t too happy…God would not look so schizophrenic …one minute bringing joy the next minute suffering…God would look like He was really in control of the universe…
I wanted my life to be measured on a flat line too...
and I wanted a predictable God.

 Freedom starting coming after the birth of my 4th child…I had been sick for years with lupus…but after His birth I was feeling better and better…I was so thankful…but I held back from really speaking of what He was doing in my body…I let questions steal…”What if I don’t continue to feel better?” Pride rob…I believed in healing…but to actually proclaim that God had healed me from an incurable disease…
that was a different story.
How would God look if the healing didn’t stick? ”
These questions and fears fleeced me…

With every virus... fear would creep back in…the enemy would whisper...here it comes…the questions would start all over. .”God what will my parents…Mark’s parents think?”….this won’t look good…I had shared with doctors…friends…now what?” God speaks into my spirit…”Who are you really concerned for…your reputation or Mine…I can use all things for my Glory…other people's reactions are not your concern…leave them to me.”  Something lifted that night…my pride was exposed…that night a burden was lifted… I was not responsible to present God in a way that made others feel comfortable…
or as a God that we can predict...
He is sovereign and all wise…His ways are not our ways...
 I was finding greater freedom from being in control of my life...
 and the world around me.

By God’s grace…this woman who lived emotionally locked up is being set free…free to feel deep sorrow…now not just for myself…but for others as well …and through Ann’s book..I now dare to live more fully…joy and thanksgiving have started to flow with ease…rejoicing not just for what God is doing in my life…but for others as well… learning how to really rejoice with those who rejoice…and weep with those who weep…I now know…I could not fully enter into these places with others until I allowed God to enter these places with me.

So today…and especially this Thanksgiving week….I REJOICE….JUMP FOR JOY….SHOUT FROM THE ROOF TOPS… for all I am so eternally thankful for.


I pray for each one led here...that you will continue to allow the Lord to unlock the prison doors...bringing freedom...and may His Love and Joy fill you today...
because....
If the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. John 8:36



~2320~2336


~feeling God order my day
~feeling God’s Grace
~changed heart with same circumstances
~listening to Ann’s keynote @ Relevant…powerful
~evening home….deep breath
~sweet baby shower invitations for Ellie and Amy
~Amy and Ellie both healthy
~still getting use to the precious words... grandmother…oh my
~seeing growth in a young struggling couple
~sunshine day
~God’s timing…talk with son…how it fits with what I was writing
~son thanking me for the talk and help
~seeing peace return
~Amy and Jared home for Thanksgiving
~God’s kind and merciful Grace.

Join me as I link-up with Ann and Jen.

Friday, November 18, 2011

The word is grow.





It's Five Minute Friday

The word...grow

Growing takes time…when you plant a seed…you must wait…wait and watch and trust by faith that life will come from that seed…
So much of that changing…transforming is done in the hidden place…buried deep in the darkness…
No one can touch the seed…the seed must just take in the nutrients…drink deep the nourishment of living water…
Until it is so full the life must break forth…the outer shell must break away so the life inside can push through the hard soil …push its way toward the sun…

So it is with us…we must allow the quiet deep working of the Spirit do its bidding…feeding…filling…all in the secret place… where transformation is done spirit to Spirit…where the Master Gardener tends to the soil…uprooting  weeds that would choke out His fruit…so we can bear mature , healthy fruit…fruit that reflects our Master Gardener.

"Don't grow weary in doing good...in due season you will reap a harvest."Galatians 6:9

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

A Velcro Kind of Day.


A Velcro Kind of Day.

Yesterday I felt like Velcro…a day spent collecting burdens …burdens I couldn’t shake off…each new activity…each thought of finances…each new twist to the schedule…a barrage of negative thoughts assailed my mind…
each one sticking to me…
each one weighing me down.

By the end of the day…I feel tired…overwhelmed…I start “future tripping”…that place where I look out into the future…a place God lets me go…but He remains in the present …there is no grace…
and I started traveling to the land of the “what ifs”…
the place that feeds my angst.

My focus narrows…locking in on the schedules that seem impossible...
or at least very inconvenient… an inconvenience to me…
guest coming at the “wrong time”… wrong time for me…

I go to bed weighed down with these burdens all stuck…until awakened with a song on my heart…”I Surrender All”… I see the chorus over and over…then one by one I lay them down at the foot of the cross…
and in the darkness of night…my vision is restored…

As I lay each burden down…God starts the transforming…what was a burden now becomes an opportunity….He walks me through one by one…

Money…opportunity to grow in trust…opportunity for God to continue to teach me His ways…opportunity to walk this walk of faith.

Schedule…He asks the simple question…”Is this where your family is to be for this season?”  My answer is YES…my first life giving choice is to submit myself to Him in the “craziness”… to trust His grace will be sufficient.  Secondly, I must choose to stop the complaining and  see the "inconveniences” as opportunities to give thanks…opportunities for Him to change me…
meet me…empty me…
  fill me.

Guest…”Did you pray that all who enter your home will feel welcomed and loved?” Yes…is it really love when it comes at my choosing or when I find the time convenient?  This…is transformed into an opportunity for God to be my strength…and to fill me with His hospitable heart.

All those negative thoughts that came to rob are lifted…
 in the simple act of believing…
I am loved.


My peace is restored...I find rest.

Over all these years (and they are mounting) I have come to believe…
that in these very small, seeming annoyances…this is where God transforms us.

Oh, How I wish I would have understood this when my children were young…to see every diaper I changed…every hour of sleep lost…every day I felt locked away from the world…these had great value…theses were wonderful opportunities to meet God…to lay all at His feet…
trusting He will redeem all things…this... my spiritual act of worship…


I pray today that those frustrations, fears, doubts and worries will all be transfigured from burdens to opportunities…
opportunities for God’s transforming power.

Join me today as I link-up with Ann and Emily.

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Pilgrimage of Love.


Pilgrimage of Love

I continue to count God’s immeasurable Grace…

the gifts He continues to lavish upon me…

My mother turned 87 yrs. young…

and we gave her a surprise party….

Oh and did we surprise her…this is a miracle in itself…

But more than delight her with surprise...

My prayer was for her to be blessed knowing she is….

Honored…celebrated…and treasured…

So we gathered her closest friends...

Most everyone there was at least 20yrs younger than her…

Most are the ladies she plays golf with 3 times a week….

I know…that statement itself is amazing…

My mom is not one to express much emotion…

But joy was written all over her face…

She drank deep the love poured out upon her…

my mom is still more pepper than salt...my sister more salt than pepper...me...hoping to take after my mom:)

I sat quietly worshiping God…

He has done great things…

He has taken me on a pilgrimage of Love…

And love leads to the Land of Grace…

Where forgiveness and acceptance flow…


And I too drink deeply of His love that is poured out upon me…

The love that He desires to pour out on all His children….


I pray for each one the Lord brings here today…that you will receive all the Love He desires to pour out on you today…                     
                                           
May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing[through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing(bubbling over) with hope. Romans 15:13(amp)


                ~2290~2300
~wonderful birthday celebration
~God's grace in action
~trusting God with my heart...He is trustworthy
~good  medical report for a friend
~baby Ellie growing and doing fine
~family time
~son calling to tell me to look at the moon, I might want to take a picture:)
~kind officer...no speeding ticket for hubby
~feeling you instruct my heart
~safe trip back for the bloggers
Join me as I link-up with Ann and Jen

Friday, November 11, 2011

The word is Unexpected.


The Most Unexpected Ways.

If we believe God is a mighty, powerful and wise Father…

shouldn’t we live in the unexpected?

be in awe of His great deeds and ways?

But why don't we live in the great wonder….the surprise?

For me I can say…it has been expectations…

expectations I had for God….

expectations for my life…

bringing my expectations into my prayers…

deep down inside desiring a certain out come…

answers coming in a certain way for….

healing…reconciliation, desires of a mother’s heart…etc…

by the Grace of God…I am letting go of my own ways….

the expectations that robbed me from living in wonder...

now I don’t live with expectations but with expectancy….

expectancy that God will meet all my needs…

according to His riches in Glory…

God will meet me in the most unexpected ways.


Wednesday, November 9, 2011

This Journey of Faith.


This Journey of Faith…



This journey of faith is a long arduous pilgrimage…


one that we traverse blindly…

through the wilderness…across rough terrain …

over mountains that abscured the view of what awaits on the other side.


This journey of faith requires planting in the dark…

causing us to doubt the SON would shine…

that light would come…

cries flow from a breaking heart…

 doubting these tears are really being gathered in a bottle.



This journey of faith can be a leap…

one that sends us free falling…spinning…

desperately grabbing for something to hold onto…

but all slips through the grip…

until  Christ alone we cling.  


This journey of faith restores our vision…


the only way to Joy.


This journey of faith keeps us traveling…

until that day…

we hear God say, “Enter into my Sabbath rest”…

enter the land where the milk and honey flows….

Because all God’s promises are yes and Amen!!!


“I am not ashamed; for I know whom I have believed and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him until that day. 2Tim. 1:12

“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” Gal.6:9

“For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6

“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” Heb.11:1

Join me as I link up with Ann  and Emily.

following and praying....

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Monday, November 7, 2011

Abundantly Blessed.


Abundantly Blessed


There is an ebb and flow of life

Times of barrenness…

Times of fullness…

Dry and thirsty times…

Times soaking from the downpour…

A planting with the hard eucharisto

A harvesting the bounty….



We all are acquainted these seasons…

Everyone rides the cycle…


Where are you in the cycle today?…I pray you find Him near…and I know God’s Grace is sufficient to meet you right where you find yourself today…

My season...one of bounty....

Birthday present from my daughter...a beautiful daily reminder of Elliott Faith


                                                                       

celebrating with Amy at her first baby shower.



                                                     ~2239~2257
                                             ~lunch with a dear friend
                                            ~friendship that finds its way through trials
                                            ~everyone around the table
                                            ~seeing growing maturity in son
                                            ~this son helping his momma with math
                                            ~amazing grace 
                                            ~God's goodness never ceasing to amaze
                                            ~wonderful weekend
                                            ~staying with my daughter &son-in-love
                                            ~basketball victories
                                            ~baby shower being held in the very place I found 
                                                   Jesus 30yrs ago
                                            ~one of the lady hosting is the one who loved me with
                                                      the love of Christ those many years ago
                                           ~only God could....
                                           ~giving my mom her surprise 87th birthday party today
                                           ~God's Grace
                                           ~God's kindness
                                           ~God's mercy
                                           ~God's ways to marvelous for words

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Friday, November 4, 2011

Here I Raise My Ebenezer.



This has been a season of reflection…

of remembering….

seeing where I have been…

where God has taken me…

In the remembering…

I can look at painful times and feel God’s healing touch…

Those wounds may have left scars…but the pain is gone…

In remembering…I see God’s hand shaping us in the desert…

preparing  for a different season…

 a season of flowing milk and honey…

In remembering…I see God’s faithfulness….

That He never leaves or forsakes….

That His Hand of love is always guiding…

Each memory…each event…

becomes a stone…

a stone of remembrance…

And I build my ebenezer…

remembering His love and faithfulness to me.