/*URL: http://www.AllBlogTools.com/ */ .basictab{ padding: 3px 0; margin-left: 0; font: bold 12px Verdana; border-bottom: 1px solid gray; list-style-type: none; text-align: left; /*set to left, center, or right to align the menu as desired*/ } .basictab li{ display: inline; margin: 0; } .basictab li a{ text-decoration: none; padding: 3px 7px; margin-right: 3px; border: 1px solid gray; border-bottom: none; background-color: #f6ffd5; color: #2d2b2b; } .basictab li a:visited{ color: #2d2b2b; } .basictab li a:hover{ background-color: #DBFF6C; color: black; } .basictab li a:active{ color: black; } .basictab li.selected a{ /*selected tab effect*/ position: relative; top: 1px; padding-top: 4px; background-color: #DBFF6C; color: black; }

Monday, October 31, 2011

I walk the Battlefield.


I walk the Battlefield…



I am amazed…
still stunned…
and even saddened…
when I see…
how much I have missed…
how much I have passed by…
daily…weekly…yearly…






                             
                                                                          

Because I lived the hurried life…

spent my energy grabbing to get…
blinded by my selfishness…

Speeding past the scenery…
everyday moments…
everyday gifts…

Missing what was right before me…
The beauty that surrounds me…

Until I started counting…
Numbering…
One by one…

The gifts…

The graces…

The beauty…

So, for the first time in the six years I have lived here …on my birthday...accompanied by my camera... I go to walk the park I have passed by in my hurried life…to savor the gifts God gives in His creation. I walk the battle field…where men long ago spilled their blood for freedom…where I worship the ONE who spilled His blood for me and you.



                               ~2203~2214
   
            ~sweet birthday celebrations with friends  
            ~laughter and love shared 
            ~older children home 
            ~opportunity to serve with love and honor with grace
            ~good report for my mom  
            ~planning a surprise for her 87th
            ~new eyes to see
            ~the gift of being in the room when my first grandbaby is born:)
            ~uncontainable  joy
            ~living in the what is...leaving the what's not behind
            ~mom and daughter luncheon and prayer time

Linking up with Ann and Jen ...come join me.


Friday, October 28, 2011

The word is relevant.


In the deepest part of every heart…there is a cry to be relevant….

For our lives to matter…to have value…. to count….

So who lived the most relevant life…the life that had the most impact?

Jesus

How do you and I live the most relevant life?

Live a life surrendered to Jesus.

And in the surrendering …we find our abiding place

“I am the vine’ you are the branches.  If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”

As we stay remaining…we will walk as He did…

We will filter our questions… should I?...what do I?…

through the very lens of Christ…

I do what I see the Father doing…I say what I hear the father saying….

We will walk bearing His fruit…

love, joy ,peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness gentleness...
 and self-control….

So I find comfort…knowing…in Christ alone…my life will always be relevant.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Bloom Where Planted...Before an Audience of ONE.

                              Bloom Where Planted...Before an Audience of ONE.

Reading today in Matthew…consider the lilies…how God cares for them…

I felt a renewed sense of awe…awe of God’s magnificent Love.

Because He creates all out of His heart of Love….

He cares for all He creates…

 I ponder the variety in creation….


 
A beautiful  flower garden displaying its splendor

 
Fall trees flaunting their crimson radiance

 
Then my mind sees a solitary blooming desert flower….

 
 flowers isolated on a lonely mountain...


God displays His beauty across the universe…

Some the multitudes see…some only God sees…


It’s a mystery to me…

Why God places some of His beauty in solitary places…

Who looks upon this beauty other than God?

Does this beauty have less value because it has no audience?


 I contemplate the upside down Kingdom?

What makes something…someone have value?

Well …in this world …it’s fame…accomplishment…audience…


But is this God's value system?

Do the flowers that bloom among the multitude have more value to God?

Does the desert flower…blooming alone under His watchful eye have less value?

How I love the answer….NO!

Because in His kingdom…value is derived just from being created…

whether a flower is planted among a crowd…

or just for an audience of One….

the value in God’s eyes is equal.

What a precious thought…

some…  just for an audience of One…

He is the master gardener…He plants for His pleasure….

All of creation comes together to reflect His glory….

A beautiful field of daisies…a lone desert bloom….

All robed in His glory…royalty before His throne

All to the Glory of God….

And sometimes it takes raw faith to believe in…to trust in... His ways.


***After I wrote this…I thought about this week in the blog world….I am very new to blogging…and I am not really sure I know all about the relevant conference….but I do sense it could be interpreted as “the place to be”…to me the conference represents the field of daisies…God bringing much beauty together…while there are others who represent blooming desert flowers…no matter where we are in God’s glorious creation…let’s lift each other up in prayer…if there are those who feel left out…less than because you are not a daisy right now… I encourage you to lift those attending the conference in prayer…ask God to bless their time… to meet each person there…and those at the conference….bless those who maybe wanted to come but could not…ask God to meet them…bless their time…because together we reflect His beauty….….bringing Glory to Him.




Monday, October 24, 2011

          The cycles of Life...                                          
With the change of leaves…cooler temperatures…

comes the flip of the calendar…another year added…

I survey life…life over these 54 years…

Conclusion: Life’s journey is experienced through cycles…

cycles rotate through our lives like the seasons of the year….

cycles of gains and losses…peaks and valleys…

blessings and burdens


In my late teens…early 20’s… the first cycle began…

I lost myself in self- hatred…lost too much weight…

lost my family…education…security….

I lost my earthy family, but I gained…because I found Jesus…

He became my all in all….


Through my mid to late twenties…

I married the one who would show me what love looks like…

God spoke life into the womb I had killed….

three precious ones I held…2 more only held by Jesus…


Most of my thirties…loss…loss of health…

loss of fellowship…loss of friendships…

one more baby held  by Jesus


Late thirties… another son to hold…a gift of joy during such a dark season…


Just before 40…. joy of another earthly blessing….another daughter

health slowing coming back….

another baby…this one sends me to the edge of death…

Jesus holds my child, but has more earthly lessons for me to learn …

we found ourselves in loss of fellowship again…deep wounds…deep loss…


Reflecting back…I see God’s faithfulness over and over...

all the treasures found in the fire…

all leading me…growing me….bringing me to where I am today….

So here in my 50’s… the cycles still come…

my husband’s job pilgrimage… leading him back to where he belongs …

kids graduating…”losing” kids to marriage…

gaining “new kids” through marriage…new babies to come…

finishing well with my aging parents…the latter exceeds the former

but earthly loss will be there too…only to be given glorious gain.

I know there are lessons still to be learned….

questions still to be answered….

but cycling through this phase of life is more gentle…

because through all these trials…

when I have tested Him….

and when He has tested me….

God has proven Himself faithful…

nothing but Love and Grace…


    so now yielding comes easier….because I know the Love to which I yield.


Join me as I link with Emily.


Friday, October 21, 2011


Beyond…I want to live beyond my limit…go beyond the call of duty….

not just do the least….

what is my duty… what is expected….

I want to love beyond my human ability…

to love when my feelings tell me something different….

I want to forgive beyond the boundaries wounds try to hold me too…

I want to give financially beyond the logic of the balance…

I long to live beyond myself…for selfishness to be eradicated…

I long to live life beyond what my flesh nature wants to dictate….

where the fruit of the Spirit  is what directions my life…

I long to live beyond…break free from …

all that keeps me from being fully united with Christ…

to live beyond each frustration…disappointment… all the noise…

right past it all…

to be one with the lover of my soul…


Wednesday, October 19, 2011


Ann keeps us on the practice of Faith… and so does God.

Since hearing Katie, I continue to wrestle…

to ask the questions only He can answer…

grappling with "what does faith looks like here?"

…now…right in the midst of my struggles…


My struggles…that is my first battle…
my mind knows God cares about everyone of us…
but my worries over finances, schedules and other strains…
seem so trivial compared to those whose faith is tried by life and death choices…
those who pray for the next meal …the next dollar…
no space between their poverty and God.
My conflicted heart reminds me of Ann, when she first started counting…
how trite did those bubbles seem…
but bubbles prepared her for the hard eucharisteo.


Isn’t faith to be exercised?

Building faith muscles is like building our physical muscles…

we have to start with light weights…easy runs…as we get stronger …

we build up…we build a strong foundation…

so when the weights get heavier…and the runs get tougher…

we don’t crumble under the weight…

we don’t collapse and not finish the race.

         So today …I am finding my bubbles of faith… slowly exercising… 
                                  building my faith muscles…               





Monday, October 17, 2011


 When seasons change....


           we must change....


                  start the transition process....





some changes come slowing...
















gradually....


















                  this slow transition eventually explodes into beauty...life...joy...

                                                                                                                                                                               

  
some come suddenly...

  these are drastic...

these change life

   in an instant....


        
           




             The slow changes are ones that we can gradually adapt to...
         a slow surrender...like my daughter...slowly giving up control of her body...
                     little by little...growing deeper in the knowledge...
                   we are never in control...our bodies are not our own...
                  these changes are accompanied with joy... a glad surrender....

                  But some surrenders are painful...like my 86 yr. old dad...
                                a very vibrant...independent man...
                   one who gets up every morning to go to church....teaches classes...
                               studies...continues to be a learner...
                    but slowly his sight has been robbed from him...little by little...
                            this was a slow transition...the start of a painful surrender

                    until one day...in an instant... the painful truth becomes evident...
                                     his driving days are over...
                         this independent man must now become dependent
                                 he must yield to reality...to limitations... 
                                     this one is not a glad surrender...
                            this surrender requires the" Hard Eucharisteo"....
                                and it is only in the hard thanks
                         that this surrender can be accompanied by joy.

Father today...may we yield to the changes...the transitions in life...surrendering our wills to yours...letting your Love hold us...and by your Grace...give thanks in all things.

                                    ~2079~2095~
~no one being injured in the wreck
~my dad choosing the yield
~God's mercy to us...not having to force our dad to give up driving
~friends gathering around to help get him to church
~my dad growing in God's Grace...aging well
~my daughter's growing baby bump
~hands always on her tummy
~feeling Ellie move
~husband home safe
~two are better than one
~life lessons in school
~getting to wrestle faith questions
~a house
~ abundant food
~electricity,water...the comforts I take for granted
~ always God's Love!





Friday, October 14, 2011


  
I am learning to catch.....


moments of love...a sister who loves to hug... a brother...well...


moments when grown son's boyhood energy breaks out.... 

catching impromptu study time...father helping daughter...PT son helping brother with bones....

catching all God's beauty around me...


Learning to catch....capture...drink in...savor...cherish...moments otherwise would have been lost....

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


                                Nothing between….

          The words dropped in deep…words that echoed in me for days…

           these words Katie Davis  spoke when asked the simple question….

      How are the Ugandan people so joyful when they live in such poverty? 

        Her answer was straightforward…straight like a knife that cuts…

              "These people have nothing between God and their poverty."


                           nothing between God and their poverty…

                     nothing left but complete trust… but to wait …to hope

            nothing left but to taste and see that the Lord is good(Ps 34:18)…

       left in emptiness....only to be filled…left with wounds …only He can heal…

                left with such betrayal …only He can bring forgiveness…

              left empty of this world…to be filled with His Kingdom.


        These words that dropped so deep cause me to launch out into the deep…

           my hope is renewed…that the God of Uganda…can be my God too …

                 a renewed desire…to say come…come right into this space…

                    right here in my finances…health…relationships…

                               right here in my middle class life…

                                    come and transform my heart... 
                          
                               so I too...can have nothing between You and me…

                                        to be emptied of more of this world…

                                               to be filled with more of Your Kingdom.


             Blessed are the poor in spirit…for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven.














Monday, October 10, 2011


Gratitude is an art of painting an adversity into a lovely picture.  ~Kak Sri


The unthankful heart... discovers no mercies; but let the thankful heart sweep through the day and, as the magnet finds the iron, so it will find, in every hour, some heavenly blessings!  ~Henry Ward Beecher
      


. “God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one to say “thank you?” — William A. Ward


“Eucharisteo—thanksgiving—always precedes the miracle.” Ann

At all times and for everything giving thanks in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ to God the Father. Ephesians 5: 20

May you and I continue to have all our senses opened to the vastness of God’s Love and goodness that surrounds our moments and days….

~2039~2055

~first dinner on campus with hubs
~sweet husband's interest in my life happenings
~kids learning to dig deep when challenged 
~walk on a beautiful day
~embracing the new normal
~playing the Wii with my daughter(should I say attempting)
~laughter together to lighten the mood
~opportunities to grow in trust
~faith in everyday moments
~walking...listening to chapter 4...1000 gifts
~six hour car trip alone with my Love
~coffee with good friends
~my mother-inlaw's birthday
~the love she has shone me over all these years
~meeting up with old friends...deep connections
~sunshine on this good Monday morning









Friday, October 7, 2011


                     I applaud the ordinary…

     Ordinary…”with no special or distinctive features; normal”

            In our society ordinary is highly undervalued…just doing the

             ordinary normal….isn’t this the role of a momma…

               What is more ordinary than wiping snotty noses…

              changing stinky diapers…kissing hurting boo boos….

                        But these ordinary moments…”duties”…

                          done where crowds don’t applaud….

                   These are actually not ordinary at all….

                      these acts of love are EXTRAordinary….

       Loving a child…from the moment the first breath is taken…

    rocking….feeding… praying…meeting all the everyday needs …
       These extraordinary acts…transform a life…mold a soul…

                    these extraordinary gifts a momma gives …

                        is the Love of  Jesus…  His Love with skin
                       
                    What an EXTRAORDINARY privilege….

                      to do the ordinary… empowered by LOVE!

So many bloggers are younger moms…I want to applaud, encourage and say…you are of great value…you are movers and shakers…you have the power to change the world…one child at a time.